Here I am. Sitting in the hospital again, waiting for what may be my last appointment with the consultant. I really hope so. It's been a long 9 months but here I am. I am back at the hospital where I had Flynn. I'm sat in the same chair in the same waiting room where I sat with Flynn in his car seat ready to go home for the first time. We've both come a long way since then. Flynn can sit, smile, clap, high-5 and crawl. I can also sit now. This chair is much more comfortable 9 months on.
The consultant is running an hour behind and so I sit and wait. I'm surrounded by new Mums and expected Mums. Pregnant ladies with their brand new maternity notes folder with all this ahead of them. I hope they don't go through what I did.
My name is called and it's time. The consultant apologies at length but really I just want her to crack on with it. Finally she does. She has my scan results and feedback from my physio. It all looks good. I once again have to answer the question "have you had any (toilet) problems? Accidents?". And for the thousandth time I answer no. "Well then I think we can discharge you".
Who'd have thought that the word "discharge" could bring so much joy to someone.
I am elated. I feel I can carry on with life as a Mum now and finally put the birth experience behind me. I look forward to it becoming a dim and distant memory - just like labour now is. It's funny reading back some of the earlier stuff on the blog. I was pretty traumatised by what happened to me but I tried to put a brave face on it as that's what we do. Writing this has helped process it all and it's nice to be at this end of it now.
Of course, I'll still continue to do my pelvic floor exercises. I'll be doing them for the rest of my life in fear of incontinence. It's recommended anyway that you do regular exercise of the pelvic floor muscles. Like all muscles they need exercise to work well so you should maintain regular exercise throughout life not just if you've had a child. But hey, that's any easy task to do. It takes 5 minutes before bed each evening and will be more than worth it in the long run. I've spent enough money on maternity pads and sanitary towels since having Flynn, I won't want to spend money in the future on Tena Lady.
And on that note, I end this months blog!
